10.30.2020

Meditation, A Poem

 

 

Meditation

 

O you used thimble lying in a dresser drawer.

O you used match.

 

Concentrate on rough and tumble;

lost become mythology:

 

Charybdis as a grain of salt, Scylla

as peppercorn. Which worse is which?

 

Let no soul bob up and down like a cork.

Suffer unborn children. It lasts,

 

do not forget as you run, it lasts.

The mind’s eye is a window to black holes.

 

Self is a loose ball of string.

You are the world; disconnect from everything.




Thomas Dorsett



First published in California Quarterly, 

Vol. 46, No. 3, Fall 2020

10.24.2020

Reflections on the Current Pandemic

 How did we get into this mess? How do we get out of it?


Don't blame the virus--(You can if you want to, the virus doesn't care). Covid-19  is, of course, the necessary cause for the current epidemic; without it, no infections would occur. But what about sufficient causes that can make the epidemic worse? Things like weather, susceptibility of the host, etc., and, especially, failure of hosts' brains to combat the spread of disease, using proven methods to do so.

Viruses have been around a very long time; viruses and bacteria are thought to have evolved from a common ancestor, which lived about 3.4 billion years ago, shortly after life on Earth began. Bacteriophages are viruses that attack bacteria, forcing the latter to replicate their genetic material, destroying them  in the process. One form of life devouring another in order to survive did not start with animals; viruses might not be red, might not have teeth, might not have claws, but they are "red in tooth and claws" as anything else in nature.

Humans have not developed antibodies against the Covid-19 virus to the degree that herd immunity (community protection) has been reached--only about 4% of the global human population has been infected with the virus to date; probably 60% or more would need to become infected to achieve herd immunity. Millions would have to die before this is achieved, underscoring the inhumanity of those who would like us to achieve herd immunity in this way.

Bacteria, however, have been around a long time, and have developed a defense, the so-called CRISPR-Cas9 system. Recently, we humans have developed a way to use this system as a form of genetic manipulation of genes, including human genes. For this, Jennifer Doudna of Berkeley has (very deservedly) won  a recent Nobel Prize.

Nature takes her own time in developing defenses, which is not human time. Who knows how many billions and billions of bacteria had to die, perhaps over millions of years,  before the CRISP-Ca9 arose to protect them?

The development of cures and effective treatments by science, however, have been a lot quicker.

One of the reasons Covid-19 is so contagious is because it is an aerosolized virus, that is, the unit of contagion is much smaller than droplets, which do not travel as far. Another aerosolized infection is tuberculosis, which is thus highly contagious as well.

Keats, Chopin, Kafka, are among the countless numbers of those who succumbed to TB. Like Covid-19, TB is a horrible death. ("I can't breathe," says the victim. "Who cares?" says the TB bacillus). Keats died this horrible death. Here's what Bryon had to say about the author of Ode to a Nightingale, who died at the age of 24:

John Keats, who was killed off by one critique,

Just as he really promised something great,

If not intelligible, without Greek

Contrived to talk of the Gods of late,

Much as they might have been supposed to talk.

Poor fellow! His was an untoward fate;

'Tis strange, the mind, that very fiery particle,

Should let itself be snuffed out by an article.


In those days, that is, two centuries go, "consumption" was thought to be caused by an emotional crisis. (Keats did receive some bad reviews, but that's not what killed him! Viruses and bacilli may be indifferent to human suffering, but humans can be quite cruel, as Byron's darkly humorous lines attest).


We have come a long way. We know now how to avoid infections from aerosolized organisms, even before specific treatment is available. It's not rocket science, just science: wear a mask, avoid large gatherings, and maintain social distancing.

The United States is the richest country in the world. For those who can afford it, it offers top-notch health care. The virus is neither American, Russian or Chinese, white or Black, male or female--its indifference is much more ancient than any of these distinctions.

Before all this happened, one might assume that the United States, the most powerful country in the world, would have been among the world leaders in controlling the spread of infection. This isn't what has happened at all. How can it be that our country, which has about 4% of the world's population has about 25% of the world's Covid-19 fatalities?

The answer is obvious. It is due to the incompetence of our political leaders. They ignore--not to mention flout--science. Viral indifference combined with human incompetence can be a very deadly combination.

What if politicians in Keats's day knew what causes tuberculosis yet recommended that one should not keep a social distance from victims of this very asocial disease?  What would we think of Hamilton today if he advocated coughing in each other's face?

Even now, our incompetent president is holding rallies without requiring masks or adequate space between spectators. It is a national disgrace.

Cooler weather--it is now fall--is forcing people indoors, a sufficient cause for the current uptick in infections. Another sufficient cause is having a superspreader president.

I'm writing this about one week before our presidential election on November 3rd. If we elect Trump again, it is likely that many more will needlessly die from this controllable disease. This, combined with all the thousands of Americans who would still be alive today if those we elected had been responsible, is horrifying.

The virus is indifferent, but I'm not. Nor, I hope, are you.


10.19.2020

Desultory Diary, Episode 34: A Mail-In Ballot Poem

 It's still not here! My wife and I requested  mail-in ballots months ago. She received hers weeks ago and has already voted. I chose to receive mine by mail. Some neighbors have received theirs. Where's mine?

Misdelivered? Lost in the mail? Undoubtedly one of the two.

Baltimore's mail--at least ours--has never been very good. It has become worse since Louis deJoy, a rich Republican donor and avid Trump-supporter, became Postmaster General in May. As we all know by now Trump asserts, without any evidence, that mail-in ballots invite fraud. Following Trump's wishes, one presumes, deJoy has done his best to slow the mail down. He has succeeded. Some days we get no mail at all. Some days we get the wrong mail. This never happened before. It's a little better now, since public protests have caused deJoy to partially mend his ways. So where's my ballot?

Good news! Today I got an e-mail from the Board of Elections, informing me that a new ballot should arrive within one week; I can hardly believe it. Will I be watching out for the mailman? You bet.

Last night--for unknown reasons--was one of those relatively rare nights when I couldn't sleep. I spent the time writing two poems in my head as I lay in bed. This is one of them. I hope my happiness shows.


Almost Empty

Happiness is a ballot;
sadness is none;
like us, sometimes mails fail;
they tell me they'll send another one.

This time my choice is clear:
purgatory or hell, for
even if the best man wins,
serious problems remain.

Too old for the polls, yet
too young to give up,
what does this citizen want?
He wants you. Everyone?

(A heart that loves this country
yet doesn't feign or swoon
for the likes of Kim Jong-un,
is this too much to ask?)

Everyone. (A ballot box
helps keep Pandora's open)--
Do not abandon hope--
This is still America!

Vote


10/12/2020 Update

I received my mail-in ballot today; filled it out--Guess who I voted for--and will mail it tomorrow. Endlich!



10/28/2020 update: The ballot is marked "received"--The status hasn't changed for the past five days. They must be swamped! At least it's not rejected. (Yet?)

10/30/2020 5 A.M. On the Election Board's website, "Ballot Received" has been changed to "Ballot Accepted." At last!

10.09.2020

Desultory Diary, Episode 33: Hamilton

 Shortly after listening a few times to Lin-Manuel Miranda's spectacular musical, Hamilton, a friend gave me a copy of the monumental, eponymous biography by Ron Chernow, which turned out to be equally spectacular. You might think it odd for me to classify a 731-page biography as a page-turner, but it is just that. The print was small and the pages large; the words at the end blurred, but the messages my bleary eyes conveyed to my brain were well worth it. I wrote down a few quotes as I read, some of which I will present now with brief comments. All quotes are by Hamilton, unless otherwise indicated.


1. "The more I see, the more I find reason for those who love this country to weep over its blunders."

Thank God, Mr. Hamilton, that you didn't live to see the mess our country is in now. I wish, though, that you were still among us--we certainly could use a brilliant Renaissance man like you now. Not only did you have encyclopedic knowledge of subjects as diverse as finance, the military, and the law; not only did you, along with Madison--mostly you--compose the many essays of the Federalist Papers, which are still widely read and applicable to our situation today, you were blessed with  nearly superhuman energy to help you help your adopted country succeed.

When one thinks of all the material gains humanity has accrued since the eighteenth century--electricity, indoor plumbing, devices in medicine and dentistry, the digital revolution, etc. etc., one is amazed. (So much suffering has been alleviated--one thinks of the pain Washington had to endure with his wooden dentures with teeth made from the teeth of a hippopotamus, which caused intractable sores by rubbing against the one tooth he had left in his head. One also thinks of the mortal wound Hamilton received from Aaron Burr in that ill-fated 1804 duel; today he might have survived).

Scientific progress continues unabated. We are plunging deeper and deeper into space; permanent cures for diseases that have plagued humanity for centuries are on the horizon; medical treatments today would astound you, General Hamilton, you who lived in an age when bloodletting and cold baths were the primary treatment for yellow fever, etc. etc.

Still...

Our emotional makeup hasn't evolved much in the past 100,000 years. Inside, we're still fighters and flighters. A caveman with nuclear weapons is indeed a frightful thing.

Hamilton liked democracy but feared a government led by masses of the undereducated. Alas! Mr. Hamilton, newspaper headlines today would hardly change your mind. Things, I think, have gotten worse.

Two quotes come to mind:

Progress is a comfortable disease--e.e.cummings

We are discovering the right things in the wrong order, which is another way of saying that we are learning now to control nature before we have learned to control ourselves--Raymond Fosdick


2. A quote from the book: "A man of irreproachable integrity, Hamilton severed  all outside sources of income while in office, something which Jefferson and Madison failed to do."

Oy! Otherwise, no comment.

3. "To have given up these men to their masters, after assurance of protection had been given to them, would have been unjustified."

During the Revolutionary War, Blacks were invited to fight for the British in exchange for their freedom. After the war, slave owners, as part of a peace treaty with Britain, wanted them back. Hamilton helped assure that this wasn't done.

Hamilton was a life-long abolitionist. In contrast to the slave-owning Jefferson, Hamilton insisted that Blacks weren't a jot inferior to whites. He wanted to abolish slavery at the end of the war, but soon realized that the southern states would cede from the union to prevent this, which they eventually did.

Thus, the despicable practice of slavery continued. We should have listened to you, Mr. Hamilton; we all would  be so much better off today, if we had.

4.Another quote from the book: "But he was so often worried about abuses committed against the rich,, that he sometimes minimized the skulduggery committed by the rich."

I doubt if Hamilton could ever have imagined the crimes American oligarchs continue to freely commit against the vast majority of Americans today. If he did, I am convinced he would have, as a founding father, written something that might have curbed their vicious greed.

Today, the top 1% of the most wealthy Americans own 40% of the nation's wealth, 50% of the stocks and 24% of the national income. This is obscene. I am sure Hamilton would agree.

4. If the party elected Burr, it would be exposed "to the disgrace of a defeat in an attempt to elevate to the first place in government one of the worst men in the community."

Burr was bad, but compared to the current president, he looks, well, damn good. (An African-American lady recently said that if a flowerpot was running against Trump, she'd vote for the flowerpot.) What would Hamilton have said and done if he had to live under the present administration? A lot.

Alexander Hamilton, I wish you were here. We need you desperately.


5. "Wars often proceed from angry and perverse passions than from calculation of interest."

All too true. This could have been written today. A principal contender for a perverse passion would be greed.

6. "The existence of a Deity has been questioned and in some instances denied, the duty of piety has been ridiculed, the perishable nature of man asserted, and his hope bound to the short span of his earthly state. Death has been proclaimed an eternal sleep."

Hamilton was criticizing here the professed atheism of the French Revolution and the supposed atheism of Jefferson. Jefferson, however, was not an atheist,  but a deist, a belief which asserted, basically, that God got the universe going, but then withdraw from it completely. First came God, then came Newton whose mechanistic theory of the universe reigned supreme for many thinkers during the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries. Then came the quantum revolution of the twentieth century, which arguably has made God unnecessary even as a prime mover. I can't agree with Hamilton here, but most people still do--even in the twenty-first century. I doubt if Hamilton would have written the same lines if he were alive today.


Nevertheless, I repeat: Alexander Hamilton, you were a genus; wish you were still with us.






10.02.2020

Desultory Diary, Episode 32: Covid Testing

I just made appointments for my wife and me to have Covid-19 testing tomorrow, October 3, 2020, at a drive-in facility near our home.

My wife began to have a problem  yesterday, a sore throat without any other symptoms. Her throat is indeed inflamed and it hurts for her to swallow. Normally, we wouldn't be worried about this at all. But these are not normal times.

I am concerned because she is a physician, and, although elderly, continues to see patients. (Wearing PPE, of course!) She cant help thinking, What about that kid I saw yesterday, who had a cough...

Even though she is long past normal retirement age, she has in her favor that she is in otherwise in excellent health--and has her gender in her favor as well. (Elderly men with Covid die at twice the rate of elderly females. Still...)

Her symptom started on the same day it was announced that Trump and the First Lady tested positive as well. (Do we feel any schadenfreude? No. Pity; for him and for us.) Trump has been reckless; we have been cautious. Nevertheless, thanks to Trump's bungled handling of the pandemic, the chances of getting infected are a lot higher than anyone in his right mind would like.

Robert R. Redfield, the Director of the CDC, has stated that if we all followed the simple guidelines of wearing a mask and practicing social distancing, the pandemic would be under control in about 12 months. We have been following those guidelines; Trump and many of his followers haven't.

Redfield even stated that a mask and maintaining social distancing are even more effective in combating the pandemic that a vaccine would be.

Staying home while Trump flouts science has made me furious. His followers--how there can be more than a dozen amazes me after all he's done and hasn't done--many of whom pack rallies without wearing masks and while sitting close together--keep people like us, who do follow science, at home for much longer than necessary.

We are among the lucky ones. So many people have become unemployed; so many people are in danger of eviction; so many people can't put food on the table; worst of all, too too many people are dying from an affliction that "is what it is" but didn't have to be.

Yes, I am furious, but I am also worried and beleaguered.

The day before yesterday we dropped off my wife's mail-in ballot at a designated location. I have yet to receive mine. Guess whom we're voting for?

Trump's rage against imaginary fraud regarding mail-in ballots is especially reprehensible. As a means of suppressing voters; as a means of forcing voters to vote in person which will greatly increase the likelihood of more infections, Trump's touting of mail fraud is a meme and a means to foster the only end he knows: himself.

We would rather be visiting friends. We would rather be in a theatre. We would rather be at the gym, etc. We would rather not have to be tested for a plague, which, thanks to our Bungler-in-Chief, rages on.